this ism. that ism.

gembira

Sunday, October 26, 2008



Call me shallow but my lacey skirt made me happy and my flats too! leopard print is cool on shoes not kain baju kurung.pendapat aku lah.

rroooarrr.eh? does leopard roars?

mistake(s)

Potentially the biggest mistake i've made.  I might die with regret over it. But i might live happily.One way or another. One risk or chances. One hope or one despair. All comes to down to decision(s).

i've set my foot down and stand my ground. Now i pray that the ground won't crumble beneath me instead of steadying me.

I can't be transparent as i don't have the heart to humiliate someone but i hate the fact that i have to be vague and can't pour my heart out when it's painfully bursting with feelings and expressions and speak my mind which is now, full to the brim.

Have you set down a path and wondered whether you should turn back and retreat? Not quite regret? Just wishing you did something differently.hurm...It kinda ring the same bells, ye tak?

I believe in the saying of "it's now or never". I must admit that there are times where i should do that, but there are also the times when courage sneaks up and suddenly im that. now or never. You wouldn't wanna live with "What ifs?" the whole of your life would you?

Meanings

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Because i got so pening with my fyp i went about and google my name.

type shasha. click search.

within seconds(connection sekejap laju sekejap perlahan)!

1st page, nope.nada.none.zero.zilch.

oookaayyyy. we move on.

type shazira.click search.

within seconds almost a minute(damn!)(connection chose to berlengah kankung)!

tadaaaaaaa.

Shazira (sha-zee-rah):
My lifemate (wife) in this world.
A talented master of flow (shape shifting), and one of the two guardians of the Watchtower.

HUH?macam apakah?kan.okay.setahu aku,my name doesn't have any meaning in Islamic names. Sedih tak? That aside. Fokus. topik kita pasal maksud kat atas.

1. My lifemate(wife) in this world.
-heh? who's wife????? GILA. semuaorang ke? GILA GILA. imagine lah.
Kekasih:
My lifemate (wife) in this world(Shazira) datang sini please.
Kinda sweet kan? tapi i wish it's wife in this world and after.hehehe.. ni x gelimat. ni sweet.

ni gelimat.let's say. A lecturer atau lebih spesikasi lagi MALE lecturer.

Lecturer:
My lifemate (wife) in this world(Shazira), awak kena berusaha lebih tekun lagi.

euww.


2.A talented master of flow (shape shifting)
-Like, who am i kidding. Ni. sumpah kelakar.celah mana aku shape shifting. weight lifting pun tak larat. nak shape shifting.hahahahaha. talented? hurm. belum diasah. master? degree pun belum nyah. of? of. flow? flower.

3.One of the two guardians of the Watchtower
Aku seorang muslim.Ye.Aku bukan lah alim.tapi aku practising muslim.Bukan pengganut ayah pin. Jadi aku tak pernah bertugas menjaga Watchtower atau menara peninjau atau pemerhati.Dah macam secret cult ke apa ni. scary.


*Btw, referring to the post below. its DYING ya'll. thanks eija comel!hehe.

Not of importance but matters still

Monday, October 20, 2008

Has yet to find the silver lining in all that has happened & for things to unfold. But i make amends and slowly finds peace, slowly but it'll do for the mean time.

Over the weekends, kekasih and i went to openhouses and missed a few. Weddings pun ter-missed.=(. Kak farah and aimi, if you read this(which i know you don't because this blog is oblivious to you hehe), i'm so sorry i missed it but i'm sure it has been wonderful!!! Congratulations and semoga bahagia ke akhir hayat,Amin~ Owhh. and nik too, sgt sorry sbb missed your open house!

owh. My sister commented me, "You look fat.". Look it in a positive way. atleast i look fat. Not dieing. How to spell die with and ing at the back? i've forgotten that. I KNOW its NOT DIEING. But for the life of me, i can't remember it. Kalau da ingat nanti, i'll change it.

Ok.good night.

Assalamualaikum

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Greetings of Salam and Well thoughts.

*Achooooo*

The blog's sadly berhabuk from ditinggalkan tak bertali(wired).geddit?if you don't some other time i'll explain.So much has happen. Good things.Bad things.Happy things.Sad things.

And i felt like a failure.i do.

More frustrating that i have to keep it vent inside my ol' self.
Alhamdulillah, kekasih hati menurutkan saja perangai dan permintaan aku yang kadang-kadang somewhat outrageous.

ok.mind's starting to wander and getting strange again. haruslah pergi mengemas. mengemas, anything that can take my mind off things.