The veil and the tiara

I bought a veil today.

I wanted to don a simple attire for my nikah.

I wanted to not wear a veil, to not wear a tiara.

Just a simple head scarf sewn with lace and flowers or pearl brooches to set it off nicely.

BUT, here's a but.

Mr. S wants to see me in a veil wearing a tiara on our solemnization day.

HE wants it. Do i want it?

Not really, no. read this : I wanted to not wear a veil, to not wear a tiara.

BUT, here's another but.

I bought the veil today.

Here's why...

I wanted other than veil and tiara so that i don't look like the conventional typical malay bride on her nikah day and to be honest(because lets face it, no one who knows me reads my blog :) , i think it's a lil teeny weeny ott to wear the veil and tiara on a nikah. But that's for me lah. Other brides may wear it and they look nice in it, some who's not so lucky didn't.

Anyway, i changed my mind, tried on multiples of veils, and chose one that i think is not so OTT and bling-blingish. Of course Mr. S was there encouraging me to buy 1. He's more than happy i think to see me finally condoning his wishes. Oh and this is after a series of heated discussion i tell you..

What made me change my mind then...

I could have stand my ground and hold my stands to not wear a veil and tiara. I will get away with it i'm sure. Mr. S is very...how do i say it...tolerant, yes...Mr. S is very, very tolerant with me. He'll just let me have my way in the end. That i'm sure.

BUT. Here's the famous but again.

But, i realized that what i want initially was to "wow" other people. I think there's some part of my (foolish)heart that wants to feel 'proud' when i don't conform to society's expectations. You know like a rebel of somekind.

So i give it a thought and somehow i realized that the person that i really REALLY want to "wow" is Mr. S. So i told myself or myself told me..if that makes any sense...that i can forgo what i want /what i don't want because the ultimatum on my nikah day is to see love and happiness in Mr. S eyes whenever he looks at me.

As corny as it sounds, i really want to please the man i love. (malu to say that out loud but then, no one knew so what the heck)

So yeah baby! Ms. S will be wearing a tiara and a veil!!! Rock on! (pujuk hati hehe but it's not so bad anyway...pujuk hati lagi :)

I LOVE YOU MR. S. I really do.

Just as long as it's not a 6 foot long veil and a 4 inch high tiara. hehe

Revisited

It's been more than a year now.

Suddenly, suddenly had this urge to write up here.

Feels good. This is good. For me.

Some space where i can whine and rant all i want.

Without any inhibitions, limitations and scrutiny.i hope.

I guess i'll be visiting more than often now wouldn't i.

See ya, when i see ya!

I've created a(another) sanctuary for me to rant and vent.....


Kalau ada sumur di ladang,
boleh saya menumpang (i tak ingat),
Kalau ada umur panjang,
boleh kita berjumpa lagi(or selalu??)




Bye loves!

Wishes

and

sleep.

stomach churn

kenapa i mesti nervous bila ada presentation????

ohhhh..why...sakit perut tau tak..endless berry-ing session..hopefully kurus! muahahaha..

ok moving on.


im still scared.


shittings ah.

ok bye.wanna go ring up le boyf(konon cool ala french la ni)...

He's sweet

"My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange — no gifts, no goods, no demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me, too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.

Yvaine, Stardust 07"


I don't deserve the words up there but Mr. S  insists that they do,that i deserve them =)

So here's to you,
My truest beau,
A mere thank you just wouldn't do,
unconditional love that's whole and true,
is what i present to you.

Ms. S

Joy

...and happiness!

My family and i (and also a future family member.heh =) will break fast together today!


yay.